My Sins-Blackened

starbucks *

2008-10-03T01:47:00.002+08:00

i'm glad .
thank you .
i'm happy .

i'm missing out on love though .
i love you .

2008-04-30T02:32:00.009+08:00

27th April 2008
Pre- 21st .
Haji Lane, Arab Street

Darsh, Vithi, Prim and Fad planned a Sheesha outing for me on the eve of my 21st:)
So Poshi aka Brinda my sister and myself grabbed a taxi down to Haji lane .
We had a light dinner then we headed off for Sheesha .

All(Darsh, Vithi, Prim , Fad & Poshi) except me .

Darsh .

Vithiyia .

Poshi .

Fad and Poshi .

The Trio .

Busy People .

Then came the surprise ...

My first cake ;)

Was this really cute round Mango cake ,
the condition was disasterous but
I truly loved every bit of it !

WARNING !

2008-04-15T06:42:00.006+08:00

WARNING !
PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS ENTRY IF YOU HAD

JUST HAD FOOD OR SOMETHING .
CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION .

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DOG ATROCITIES IN KOREA .

For those who are not familiar with Korean food,
Seoul, and South Korea in general,
what a dog meat farm is,
what it looks like,
what types of conditions the dogs being kept in such a farm live with,
and to address the issue of people eating dog .

A dog being hanged .

A man hanging a dog over the bridge .
Open picture for a better view .

People in South Korea eat dogs and cats .
Because dog meat is expensive,
the people in rural areas raise and kill the dogs themselves;
or steal them.
Several places in South Korea serve dog as a regular part of the menu.
It is common .

These pictures are nothing compared to the rest I'm going to put up now .

A bloody mess .

A dog ripped into half .

Insides out .

Split into shreds .

FUCK .

I feel very sad humans go to such extents
to just for their own needs .
The world's going to end soon .

Baby ...

2008-03-05T23:56:00.011+08:00

My Hair .

The only family PHOTO we took that night =)
I love my family !!!

My Little Sister and Me !

Kavin , Brinda , Rishma , Shamini , Shamini's brother and Sahana on the floor =)

Kavin , Banu's sister , Banu , Rishma and my sister up to something .

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Well , That was at my sister's birthday 2 months ago

I forgot to post this up .

Including a "better" picture of my hair .

Haha =)
My birthday's coming ...
I'm turning 21 .

I remember wishing I was 21 when I was 16 .
Now Im wishing I'd turn 27 asap .
I really want to live on my own .

MY HOUSE ,

MY MONEY ,

MY LIFE ,

maybe

MY CAR !!!

I don't owe anyone anything .
HAHA !

6 years time baby !

You live your own life , make your own decisions .
Someone told me this yesterday .

I wouldn't have minded if it was any TOM , DICK OR HARRY down the road .

It was him .

I mean , I would love to share our commotion down
here but I still prefer to keep it under cover .
I'll share one day .
Or maybe I wouldn't .

Skipping what our fight is about .
I have started noticing , the changes my Hari has gone through .
Hari , I know that you'd never be on this very web page .
I still want you know ...

I really understand that you are busy ...
I met you when you were in NS and now that you have ORD'ed and all ..
You are busy with your Referee thing , school , tuition and looking for a job thing ...
I really understand , thus Im not bullying you to meet me everyday and all .
I have school too , I have projects to finish up too .

I know they all are NOTHING compared to how busy you are .

Just that its rather funny to think you took the EFFORT to BUY A PHONE

to chat with me when we were dating and now you
DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE YOUR HOUSE PHONE IS .

Why does anyone get into a relationship in the first place ?

To go for movies together maybe ?

To go for Dinners together ?

Maybe Slack together ?

No , I don't think so .

To me -

Being in a relationship means you SHARE , Share your secrets , your worries , your problems .

Being in a relationship means , you have someone you can ASK for solutions ,

for help and to know that you have one person to lean on anytime of the day .

Only after all these does the

" laugh together , cry together , eat together , shit together "

things come about .

You said Its my life and I make my own decisions .
Yes I agree .
I would never want you to make them for me .
Yes Im old enough you say , and thats right .

So if I told you tomorrow ...

I wanted to try out STARVING for fun would you let me ?

Doesn't make ANY sense right ?

I mean if I saw you making a mistake , I would stop you .
If you get angry or something I would explain myself to you .
That's why I couldn't understand why you got so angry with me yesterday .
I was out with My cousin for lord's sake .

Its actually a very simple issue if we had talked about it in a lighter tone of voice,

I don't think it would have gone this far .

Yes , I remember telling you I had alot of work to do .
If that's the case ,

then YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME TO STAY AT HOME TO DO MY WORK .
You met me right ?
I plan my work and I've been keeping up to my schedule .
I stay up the whole night doing my work .
Just to let you know ...
Ive been doing abit more this week so that when I meet you on Friday
I won't have to put myself through a guilt test .

I prioritize my friends just as much as you do .
You can say that you haven't been staying over with your friends

for a long time but same applies to me as well .
I've only stayed over with my friends very little comparing myself to you and ...
I DO NOT DRINK MIND YOU .

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Never mind Baby ...
I just need ONE WHOLE DAY to straighten things out between us .
Just one whole day .

I'm sure we didn't meet by chance and
ended up together because it seemed nice .
I know WE are not a mistake , we can work this out .
I have hope .

I miss you somehow .

Sorry people for the MUSHY POST .
I had no where esle to clear my head and throw my burdened heart onto .
Love you Kelwin thanks for being such a sweetheart !!!

love,
Renuka .

Fond memories .

2008-03-01T04:36:00.003+08:00

I know at this very moment I shouldn't be doing this
and should be busy typing out my essay , but I couldn't resist .
I just had this feeling/thought/emotion I had to pen it down somewhere QUICK .

I'm over at Darsh place to do my essay as I think by now the whole world knows about my
"MAGICAL COMPUTER" .
Yup the same one -
just that now it has the gift of shutting down on its own every morning at 1.15 am sharp .

Well , Darsh's dad just came back home from Batam . He took his bath and went about to eat and all .
Darsh did the cooking today and he was eating what she had cooked complimenting
that it tasted really good and all ... and so he and Darsh's mother had a conversation going on
about how good she has picked up cooking and so on .

I just saw myself turning 13 again , when I was sitting at the kitchen preparing a sandwich for my dad after my very first home econs lesson . I over-heard him talking to my mother ,
" See my daughter does better sandwiches than you ! haha ! "

Coming back to reality , I really miss my daddy .
Some of his dearest memories really keep me going .
I know that though he is not her PHYSICALLY ,
he has been always here mentally taking good care of me .
I love him alot for that .
Alot ...

Recently , 2 of my friends lost their fathers too and I felt really sad for them both .
I actually went through a period of depression for a little while .
I don't know , Im so scared history would repeat itself .
I always catch myself warning Hari to take care of his health -
me staying with him or ending up with him is another whole issue
(I really hope to end up with him)
the point is if I do end up with him - I
don't want my children to lose their dad the same way my dad cheated us .
Sometimes , when I let my mind-waves take charge of me I feel like I would never have children ,
Sometimes I see myself not getting married at all ,
Sometimes I see myself all old and wrinkly holding Hari's hand
( he is old and wrinkly too -haha =]) .
Im such a confused person .
Nevertheless , I still hope for the best whatever fate has in store for me .
For now Im contended with the friends Ive found ,
The families Ive gained through them ,
My own happy little family and my bf

=)

I love you all ...

To brighten my entry up a little , here is

ME ...

before my braincells stopped working ...

&

After my braincells stopped functioning

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Yes yes .
I permed my hair .
All up .
Once I have a nicer clearer picture ,
I'll put it up .
Good night , everyone !

off to my wretched essay again .

with love,
re nu ka .

goodness .

2008-02-22T23:19:00.004+08:00

I know I'm blogging after ten thousand gazillion years but WHO GIVES 2 HOOTS , its my blog and I choose when to blog or when I don't want to .

Anyway ... this one's going to be all words- so you tired of reading just buzz off .

I just came home from Haresh's surprise birthday party near his place .
Well , Its going to be very short and sweet becos whenever I try to talk this to you I end up crying my heart out ...

When I first met you and it all blossomed I swear the only thing I saw in you was HIM .
If not there wouldn't be a reason for me to even be with you even though you are such a fantastic soul .
You were my second chance ---- my REBIRTH .
My special one , only your hugs could make me feel happy ,sad, angry & almost every other emotion I thought I could/would never feel .
When we started, I do agree I didn't give in my 100% - its just me to test waters before I always make any important decision .
I wanted to test you, if you were just toying with me and my feelings -
when I realised you weren't --- I fell REALLY hard for you .
I confess, you are one of a kind, an amazing person, Im grateful to have you by my side and I feel sometimes I don't deserve someone so nice .

That's when I started questioning your past, not because I wanted to compare myself to her- HELL NO . I just wanted to know EVERYTHING about you, I needed to - It'll kill me if I knew you were lying to me or hiding something from me .
YES - INSECURE AS HELL I AM .
I SUCK AT DEALING WITH MY INSECURITIES AND,
SOMETIMES IF YOU STOPPED RUNNING AWAY AND,
JUST TOOK A STAND AND ANSWERED ME.
IT WILL HELP LIKE HELL . GREATLY .

That's because , I believe that a relationship (any sort of relationship for that matter let it be friendship, family bonds etc) solely stands because of trust .
I just cannot stand LIARS - because when I truly trust someone I tend to give in my everything and it hurts really badly when I don't receive the same treatment back .
I mean maybe its too much to expect ...but wtf its just ME .
Not like you knew me yesterday- Ive always been this way .

Now, NOWWW THAT I TRUST YOU, BEYOND ANYTHING, I REALISE YOU'RE DRIFTING AWAY AND IM LOSING YOU .
Am I such a bore ?
Just be honest, I handle honesty better than lies to make me feel better . When you do this to it - Its painful .
Really painful ... like HE is going away from me ... all over again .

I won't hog you ...
This very post is my final call- to reach out to you .
Im going to go away now ...
I won't disturb you ...
seeing you away from far would keep me happy ...
Sometimes, I really get super angry ...
Like my ego gets all so bruised and I just want to get the shit out of this relationship ... but the I recall *yes-every girl's weakness--those good times--* then I'll sit down and read your messages you sent me from India & I swear ... no one can stop me the moment I start tearing then I realise whatever -
* shit feminist stand up against MCP's
if he doesn't care you are strong and no one can decide for you shit loada crap* IS JUST NOT THE WAY I WANT TO HANDLE ISSUES WITH YOU AND I STILL NEED YOU SO MUCH EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY - You just mean the whole wide world to me ... I just LOVE you .
& Im really sorry okay ?

I just ____________________ H .
*don'tabandonmethewayhedid*

sorry .

call me back when you please ... =)
while typing this out I swear my inner voice went, "why not you call him?" ---
then I forced it to shut up because I remembered I don't want to hog you no more .

renuka .

Nana's 24th .

2007-09-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

People work their way forward .
I'm updating my blog backwards .

I'm only updating because SOMEBODY wants to read , god knows why .

We just celebrated Nana's birthday last Thursday .
She turned 24th .

Now she's officially known as OLD FUCK .
hahahahaaaa :)

Raimi , Me , Din , Nana and Jane .
* Kel took the picture for us*

This is how we all became friends .
MY BIG MOUTH + ALOT OF LAUGHTER

= NEW FRIENDS FOUND .

Raimi and Me outside Peace Centre .
Outside Paradiz Centre Drawing subway .
Arch Rivals !!!

That's my dearest china boyfriend Kelwin =)
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Been away -
school's been hard on me .
HAHAHAHA .
LIKE REAL LAR .
Im traumatised about my PHOTOSHOP assgn .
Don't know how -
Hey 'wierd fuck' you got to help me out !

Recently made some new friends .
Went to Gotham with Valli and her friends .It was alotttt of FUN .
Seriously .
We saw male strip tease also =)

I don't know why Ive been getting alot of X recently .
Like ....
It feels wierd .
I can CHOOSE .
Never had this kind of X when I was younger .
I feel more ... happy about being myself .
Rare moments I feel about myself in that manner .
How cool .
p.s: X is a variable ` meaning it can be anything .

I was talking to Jeevan that day .
Maybe what he said was really true .
I must really think about it .
For the sake of him at least .

Totally check out this video .
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA :)
DRY HUMPING YEAH !

I miss you la .
Sorry !

First day of Lasalle SIA .

2007-08-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

STEP 3 : CLEANING THE CLOSET .

MY BAGS .

THE CLOTHES .

AFTER CLEANING -

not much difference ?

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First day of school .

1st day . (130807)

I didn't get to take much pictures .
The few I captured .

Lasalle -blocks G and H .

The grass patch .
Where we all lay as banglas ;(

This one was when Seelan saw his friend sitting infront of Jeya and me .
I tell you .
Jeya and I were bored shit .
We pon`ed the second part of our orientation .
Bloody fucking boring siak .
I saw this fucking cute shit with a helmet (:
* heyyyy darsh I'll talk to him YOOOUUUUU WAIT ! *

We attended a talk from 10am till 11am .
Then get to know the school thingy .
Walk around .
Use the life etc .
THEN BREAK FROM 11.30 AM TILL 1.30 PM .
JEYA AND I DIED .
We walked to Little India for Lunch .
Then came back and just sat on the huge fake grass patch .
Then at 1.30 we had brain tumor due to boredom and we pon'ed .
That's the second part lar .

After school at StarBucks (P.S)

2nd day

No picture taken at school .

Met my classmates .

Currently just know 3 of them
KEL ,
RAIMI
& KHAI .

Quite friendly and Im the noisiest in class .
Quite a number of foreign exchange students in my class .
woooweee- and my cute shit's class was opposite mine .
Wasn't listening to the lecturer - looking at him .
*& now I don't know what to bring for school TMRW :( MAMPOS !!!*

Met Desouza after school .
Miss him like fuck .
Sagee also came along .
Desouza & I bullied her .
She threw Ice Lemon Tea on me :(
It was fun though .
I love Jeevan !!!

I miss Darshnee - my teacher .

nights ta` all .

love,
ree

Thanks to Vithiyia : Blogskin (:

2007-08-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

Changes are Healthy .
So I cut my hair ...
STEP 1 .

Then I decided to get NEAT .
Yes .
This 'neatness' usually comes along with
my mood swings to just clean up .
STEP 2 .

MY TABLE .

BEFORE .

upfront

side

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AFTER .

upfront

side

School's starting on Monday .
*excited*
I bet a Million dollars ,
that it wouldn't look half as neat as this is .
This is not really neat still ,
just that there's plenty of space for me to work now .

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In the evening ...

I met up with ,

WORLD'S NICEST PEOPLE ...

Sai Valli Pandit & Matthieu Girault ((:

along with my dearest Ambika ...

He was not at all what I imagined him to be .
I thought his really going to make us both look inferior or something .
He was all so friendly and very generous with his compliments .
*BUT ABIT TOO MUCH LAR THIS VALLI AND HIM - MAKE ME PAISEH*

Matt's horribly sweet and OMG & they make such a beautiful pair :)
We had dinner at Thai Express (Marina Sq) ,I took Laksa
* The King Of Thai* that's the name of my laksa .
Sadly we didn't spend much time with Matt and Valli
they were rushing to catch RUSH HOUR 3 and
we had no photos to commemorate the day :(

Then met Kovalan , Kana and MaMat .
Kana drove me over to Darsh's place .
Sadly I had to endure the amount of torture *pinching-punching etc* in between ...
about my fatness and how I always eat up all my family's share .
IDIOTS .
haha .

Then I sent Darsh till Causeway to meet her new Taurean friend .
Bitch be safe *

Now I'm back home :)

I'm contented with today .
*inclusive of that red packet*

I love the world .
Good night !

love ,
ree :))

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Like what the Hell ...

2007-08-02T09:36:00.000+08:00

I am bloody irritated with my boss .

I mean , he's willing to increase

*'s pay because she is badly WANTED

and he reduces my pay because he has got

"many" girls working for him .

I mean ....

its like so unfair .

I used to do so much for this company ...

Projects , drawings and sales ...

I didn't even get commission or Over time .

NOW ....

He still wants me to do drawings and membership dept

but my pay's retarded .

I should really charge him extra for

my drawing like a copyright thing .

ARGHHHHH .

Anyhow , skipping this topic .

I GOT ENLIGHTENED TODAY .

YES .

ASK ME WHAT ENLIGHTENED ME ?

More like WHO ?

hahahahahahahahaaaa .

Yes , Yes a veryyyyyyyy pretty boy .

How's the next question right ???

Okay .

This is HOW ...

. _____ .

I adopted this new super idiotic and stupid retarded habit ,

SENDING DARSH TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY

BEFORE I GO TO

WORK BY BOUNCING FROM BOON LAY .

Okay , now WHY is it retarded ?

Basically because ,

I live in WOODLANDS - red line leads to Raffles Place in 45 minutes .

I take the train with Darsh at 7.20 am towards

Jurong (green line), change to Boon Lay -

get down take the bus to her campus

& spend 15 minutes in the ride with her

& the remaining 15 minutes in solitary till Boon Lay MRT Station .

Then take the ride from Boon Lay to Raffles

& the 5-10 minutes ride to Robinson Towers .

The exact time I reach my office is 9.15 am .

So time spent to travel :

7.20 to 9.15 = a ridiculous

1 hour and 55 minute (2hours)

So why do I do it ???

Because If I do not do this ...

I will not wake up on time ...

I will wake up at 2 pm ...

Leave my crib by 3 pm ..

Reach office at 4 ...

AND NOT DO ANYTHING BUT DRINK

500000000000 CUPS OF MILO IN THE OFFICE .

I hope that explains my fatness .

Okay back to my pretty boy ...

He was sitting opposite me ,

Not very tall 1.75 maybe .

Fair .

Looked about 25-ish .

The thing which I found 'OMG' ish about him is his attire .

Very neatly ironed crisp white long sleeved shirt with red lines horizontal lines .

Very neatly ironed black office pants ,

which didn't catch at all the wrong places *hahahhaa*

Polished black pointed shoes which didn't look too pointed like some witch wear .

A simple black elegant suitcase .

He's not the first guy who caught my eye .

Working at Raffles Place , a super duper OFFICE WORKING AREA .

I see millions like him in a single day .

Everyone of them caught my eye ,

but I never really sat down to wonder

WHY THEY ACTUALLY CAUGHT MY ATTENTION COMPARING

MYSELF TO MOST GIRLS OF

MY AGE WHO PREFER THE GUYS

AROUND THEIR AGE .

*THE NS GUYS .

*THE POLY BOYS .

*THE JC BOYS .

*THE UNI GUYS . (QUITE RARE)

Then it hit me ...

I think I just like MEN - NOT BOYS (not anymore at least)

Okay I know all my guy friends are going to slap me and go ,

"OI ARE YOU SAYING WE

NOT MAN ENOUGH !!!"

To me ...

I think it concerns more of the SECURITY issue .

Me being an ass slut ,

hahahahahaa .

I mean - That's what I go for .

Not only that I personally think that guys with

office wear look more appealing and mature .

So what I'm trying to say is ...

I'm not getting attached till I'm 32 .

muahahahahahahahahaaa =)

Yup end of my DUMB enlightenment story .

hahahahaa ...

basically I'm at work with nothing much to do ...

Thanks to my boredom , this post was born .

with love,
Renn

walllaaaoopps

2007-07-30T10:12:00.000+08:00

Well , with nothing much to say today ,

I thought I'll just copy one of my friendster messages down here .

Which I thought was pretty comical one after the first one ,

an Indian national say about 40 years proposing to marry me

and give ME his undying love .

wtf !

Well....well........you seem to be quite a character....!
Ha ha ha....so in the true sense of this website.... be a friend!
Well....im currently finding new ways to expand my social circle......
n im exhausting this venue first.
Singapore’s is too small and too boring…..
so I had to resort to IT to make friends……Ha ha!!!!
People ask" How can you be friends with someone you have never met?"
And i tell them" You’ve never been online I bet!”
Well…..with these words of wisdom I will be expecting your retort…ha ha ha…….
unless you think im some sorta 'cereal killer'.
Till then toodle loooo!!!

I'm just wondering ...

How you somehow managed to 'catch' my 'character' when my profile's PRIVATE .

You must be really smart ...

*barfs*

I'm also wondering ...

How many times you copied and sent this message out to girls on friendster .

GET A LIFE .

gosh .

I visited celestechen.com yesterday thanks to xiaxue.blogspot.com .

Yar yar 'the blog that everyone ''secretly'' loves'

Gosssshhhhhhh ...

*Im not supporting Wendy in any manner BUT ...*

All I can say is ...

BLOODY HELL YOU GOING TO FAIL

YOUR 'O' LEVEL ENGLISH CELESTE !!!

confirm .

I mean it irritates me .

The english thing .

People you need some daily dose of lameness :

Celest Chen totally has it all .

*sorry celeste - my opinion*

Other than that ,

though I personally feel that WC can get a bit mean at times .

Her humor has an evil twist to IT .

Honestly picking on random people and linking them to your

blog for your readers to laugh their ass off is GODDAMMIT mean ,

especially when your blog is the most read`able one around .

Other than that ,

she makes my days at times that I totally depressed

wih utterly nothing to do .

On the other hand ...

my orientation due on the 6th of August

got postponed to the 13th of august .

Just received the letter .

I was so exicited about the opening lor .

Went over to her crib yesterday .
Then we were playing .
Manicure and loadsa good food .
Then she 'pou' me- tell her mother I didn't inform my mom of my presence there .
godammit .

love,
ree :))

2007-07-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

Just a random post .

Alot of things on my mind recently and nothings helping .

Enough of my head and me .

Lets see ...

Ahhh ,

School's starting soon .

Pretty excited .

Not too sure WHAT I'll meet there .

I'm quite worried about how taxing school's going to be on me .

My skills ain't really wonderful as well .

I'll have Jeya and Cher during my orientation .

I'm so scared that I won't make any friends during my orientation .

After reading about "Vasculitis" entry that Vithiyia blogged about ,

I was thinking about my most depressing moment .

ONE MOMENT .

Guess , my biggest depressing moment was when I lost my dad .

Listening to many of my friends talk about themselves-

that its so "heng" that no one close to them has passed away and they can't imagine ,

I can only smile .

I still see myself as that 13 yeared old kid sitting

in the corner of the apartment .

Cowering in one corner .

Avoiding all familiar faces .

There's no furniture in the room .

Empty

Only a coffin .

My dad lies there .

peacefully ???

I don't know .

I cannot describe that exact moment .

Nothing can express what I felt/still feel .

THEY passed me his glasses and watch .

I was gripping onto them with all my life .

Hoping .

Maybe...

THEY were holding on to my mother .

I see myself , as that small helpless kid ...

creeping slowly towards the coffin .

sliding my hand in to touch my dad's face ...

cold . freezing cold .

I was hoping ...

I could wake him up maybe ...

The whole house was in silence ...

dead silence.

Nobody around me understood ...

how that one moment instilled maturity in me .

It wasn't really that moment .

I had many ...

There were so many days I wished I had him to walk me to school ,

sign my report card ,

come for teachers' parents meet .

Till today ,

I feel very depressed when I see kids in the train with their fathers .

Playing , Laughing ...

no one can replace him .

appreciate anyone and everyone around you while they are with you .

I'm sorry mother .
I know Im your biggest disappointment .
Glad that we understand each other better .

with love ,

Me .

2007-07-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

*this one was taken ages ago*

Sadly .

Don't have a picture to celebrate meeting Suha today ...

It was -

AWWWZUMMMMM

*someone's spelling*

We went to Orchard .

I ate Claypot Tom Yam .

She ate Tom Yam Fried Rice .

We waited for Naren .

We walked around .

We went to TAKA'S FOOD FESTIVAL .

We ate Dark Chocolate & Dino Milo*SAUR* Ice-cream

*hahahaa*

WE STARRED AT AN ARTIST AT WORK

FOR 30 MINUTES AND SAT DOWN

TO CALCULATE HER HOURLY PAY .

bllooooddddyyyy nonsense lar su YOU !

We went down to Cineleisure to check out the rooms ,

Saw Deeban .

Totally forgot he was working Tonight .

I saw Sze Min , Paula , Justin , Helmi .

hahaha =) miss those people .

Then I met Valli at Marina Bay and guess who was in the train ?

SHI WEI !

hahaha .

We joked and joked and joked till SW dropped at her bus stop .

Then the topic turned solemn ,

We discussed .

We laughed .

We went to 7/11 to buy something to drink .

Valli walked me to the traffic light .

I reported home .

* the bloody end *

I miss Darsh and Vithiyia already .

I want to go FISHING DEHs !

Missing my curls too :(

good night singapore .

with love ,

this girl .

P.S : I was bored so I did this .

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

How Do Men See You?

You Are 76% Feminist

You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not.
You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.

Are You a Feminist?

l a m e n e s s .

bwah !

2007-07-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

The year's been pretty tough on me .

Im smiling , laughing , meeting people , hanging out and all .

there's always a "BUT" somewhere right ?

Like they say as the years go by and people get older and wiser ...

responsibilities increase .

Ive had responsibilities that no 13 yeared old kid could have imagined when I was 13 .

Till now , it has not lessened abit .

Problems come in many forms .

Currently it has come in my tenant's form .

Yes ,

my tenant living in my house (Malaysia)

No use talking about it .

calls after calls .

My mother's exhausted and I'm angry .

WHY NOT JUST LEAVE HER BE INDEPENDENT ?

WHY THE HELL ?

whatthefuck .

Anyhow, my 17th of July was beyond ___________ .

Horribly sweet .

there's always a BUT remember ?

I hope * is able to take it positively and maturely .

whatever my decision is .

which I have not settled on .

I SAW YOU .
run away . shoosh .

yes .

its a c o n c a v e cut .

____________________________

with love ,

renuka .

2007-07-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

I know .

I know .

I KNOW .

ATROCIOUS RIGHT ?
hahaaha .

Its been more than a month since I last blogged .
So many things has happened .

Darshnee's an official studen teacher now .

I quit E2MAX .

Ive joined Jill Lowe again .

I miss Nazrad & gang .

I miss GOPI alot .
* thanks for treating me with RESPECT *

jane - h i s t o r y .

Im starting school in 5 weeks .

Im using a SHIT PHONE .
that's that .

Recently been up to nothing much but meeting ALOT of my buddies .
Ive met Kumari a GAZILLION times already :))

I meet up with my 5 minus "one bloody tompok" sisters ...

girls will be girls :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH & NELLY .

I also went CLUBBING

a small gathering more like it ...

Finally I met Sangee and we went to PALAWAN ...

I also finally met Viknesh & Mesh

after a gazillion years .

THE DAY'S BEEN PRETTY GOOD TO ME ;)

Feeling abit down for some reason only my beloved darshnee knows .

I feel terrible .

Im sorry Im pulling you through this .

I miss US 3 like fuck .

with this Im signing off .

with Love ,

Renuka .

2007-06-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

Party Pictures

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Went to the
CINELEISURE INTRVIEW .
guess what ?
I got the job .

Im starting on Tuesday .

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Today .

I met Valli Ka & Mika .
Shopping Shopping Shopping .
Fun fun fun .
Met Deeban and Ragu .
Went home in Renga's car .

He dropped us off at Ten Mile Junction and we took a cab back home .

TOday's Mom's birthday .
Haven't got over the fact tt I missed it last year for an ARSE .
This year Iwanted to give her the best .
She didn't expect the cake and all .
Damn cute !
Really nice to see her smile after a gazillion years .
*IGNORE MYMOM'S NIGHTEE*

My bruder . oil tank .

My glamourous sista . *muahahahaha REVENGE*

Yes Yes - I look like my mother .

Her Present . She loved it .

Her cake .

The candles don't bother we didn't count .
HAHAHAHAR .

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2007-06-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

* sweat & tango *

Today
We went to Hafiza's Nephew's 1st Birthday .
Extremely fun !
We had what I think they called

" Dance Floor "

We ate the super delicious food .

whooohooo .

I didn't eat the whole day

-so I ATE ALOT !

*burp*

I danced with her cute cute neice .

haha :)

FUN !

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GLAD

we talked things over Vithiyia .
The eating sensation within me has disappeared .
If Ive ever upset you ,
ever before I apologise .
Ive had my reasons at that point of time .
I'm sorry .
Love you .
*itrustyoumoron*

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I'm fucking disgusted that I teared .
For that one little vulnerable moment
* the slut no one understood *

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*photos taken at hafiza's function would be up soon*

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There's so many things going on in my mind
as I type this very sentence down .
Watching my friends ,
lead their lives the way they think its right .
Not as if I'm right ...
I just know one thing though ...
the value of Morales is down the drain .
No one cares .
No one bothers .
I do .
I care .
Kumari .
Don't let him influence you .
I'll kill you .

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* everyone's having troubles -won't somebody smile for me? *

2007-06-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

No one would listen to me .
They'd think something's wrong with me .
Leaves me back to BLOGGING about it .

Viknesh has left Singapore .
He took the 9.30pm Flight .
TO INDIA .
Would have landed by now .
My heart pain .
:( NOT THAT ANYTHING ...
Its just that none of my good friends
have ever gone like super far away ...
Miss him already .
I guess its because talking to him on the phone
is an everyday affair .

I ever missed a friend before .
I used to speak to her everyday too .
Guess I too numb for it now .

my hearts aches quite abit .
haiiz .
huuggs chinna boy .

Today was a GREAT day .
2 things happened .
I officially quit Jill Lowe International .
No more the Image Consultant Company anymore .
Anybody know of any place with vacancies let me know .
The other thing would be ,
Vithiyia , Darsh and myself went out for HOPPING after
10 thousand 5 hundred and sixty five years .
We met Shamini , Vanan's friend as well .
She's nice .
We went shopping and I bought a pair of pointees & a white button top .
Weee .
Spent about 50 dollars inclusive of food .

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
CLUBBING ON WEDNESDAY !
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

after 10 thousand years going clubbing with indian friends again .

That's all for today's episode of
Renuka Ulaganathan's DUMB DUMB Life .
See you next time .
Oh forgot to mention
my mom's thinking of getting me
married off to an indian national engineer when I reach 24 .
WTH right ?
NO WAY LAR !

verrryyy funnie motherrrrr *indian accent*

2007-06-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE VIKNESH aka CHINNA BOY !!!

Small boy going to India .

Kutti very sad .

Kutti and Chinna Girl will miss you alot .

Take Care !

Great to know that you are excited about it .

Sad .

*my fucking phone's spoiled .

upset lar .

Dont know why .

Just want to be alone .

2007-06-04T05:41:00.000+08:00

' when the sun shines , we shine together '
' told you Id be here forever '
' said I'll always be your friend '
' took an oath that I'ma stick it out till the end '
' now that it's raining more than ever '
' know that we'll still have each other '
' you can stand under my umbrella '
' you can stand under my umbrella '
' ella ella eh eh eh '
' under my umbrella '

Vithiyia .

Don't kill me :)

2007-06-03T16:54:00.000+08:00

Its been exactly a week .
No calls yet .
I mean ...
I cannot take my head off it lar .
Super offended and affected .

__________________________________

I wonder how the NTU show went .

Logan must be pissed with me for not turning up .

I'm sorry lar .

I have my reasons .

I'll meet you up and talk soon kay ?

Mr. Desouza Johnathan Edmund Jeevan .
I'll like to meet up with you for a cup of coffee .
FUCK MEET ME LAR .
I want talktalk .

* stomps feet & cries *

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* as for work ... *

* Jill Lowe International *

Darsh and myself work only 2days a week now .

We both work on Wednesdays & Fridays .
We can go on any other day we please as well .
So at the moment I'm quite free .
PLEASE SOMEBODY DATE ME :)) *need a break*

harhar .

Oh I'm also looking up for other part-time working opportunities .
So anybody know of anyplace please beep me !
Ive also signed up for relief teaching .
Would be getting quite busy soon .
Can't wait for school to start !
*excited*

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YESTERDAY ...

Darsh & Myself went over to Vik's place yesterday
to get him lunch .
We went abit late and SOMEBODY was complaining that
his lunch became his fucking dinner .
Oiii , we took a cab for you shithead !
Then Potato came along .

Was fucking funny .
As usual I was the
FUCKINGBUTTOF
THEFUCKINGJOKE .
This time the joke was about my skirt
and they were threatening me that they'd pull it down .
whaaaaat the fuck .
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been feeling quite red for sometime .

Ive met the girl after me .

Ive moved on .
Glad its over .
I'm not that dumbfuck anymore .

&

I'm glad ...
that I'M NOT THAT GIRL !
har .

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I MISS THAT SHORT FUCK . WHY THE FUCK ! the betrayer fuck .

2007-06-02T01:14:00.000+08:00

MOTHER'S NOT IN TOWN !!!

I wish I could say its celebration time , but hell no .

Ive been stuck at home .

Tomorrow as well .

Aiyah .

Heck It !

I miss mother already .

She'll always nag nag nag .

Very one kind without her at home .

Okay ...

Darsh's overnighting tonight .

She's here watching GURU .

I think she's meeting Babu tomorrow .

So Im pretty F R E E !

I wanted to meet Chinna Boy .

He has also been abandoned ...

His family went to India leaving him alone .

Thought of meeting him up ,

sadly his cousin is over .

T E R R I B L E .

SO NO PLANS YET .

s a d l y ...

Okay off to I don't know where ...
Maybe, I'll join Darsh and watch a movie with her .
Nightie nights .

2007-05-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

Our pooling turn camwhore session .

It was extremely FUN !!!

SEAN JOHN YOU SUCK AS A POOL-GURU !!!

I managed to master pool to a certain extent .

i am hating you .

such a ungrateful soul .

why the fuck did I speak up for you of all people ?

2007-05-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

I've lost my self-pride four times

in a single week .

Yes .

A single week .

4 DAYS OUT OF 5 DAYS .

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY & FRIDAY .

I CALLED HER .

4 TIMES .

WITH NO SHAME .

I TOLD HER

I ACTUALLY MISSED HER .

SHE JUST TOOK IT IN ...

TOLD ME SHE'D CALL ME BACK ...
AND NEVER DID .

har .

You should have heard the reasons she gave me .

Hey, you could have just slapped me instead .

I deserve this .

I do .

For all the effort I put into this .

He overtook me .

Love's blind .

She's investing her youth in December .

I'm waiting ...

to guide her through it .

with a =)

I'm so depressed .

REALITY has struck me so hard .

I know that I got made use of so bad .

My heart aches in pain .

My ego forbids me to cry .

How did she manage to bring me

through this with no remorse or guilt ?

How many days ...

I stayed back in school,

just to walk her to the bustop .

I stood up for her ,

and got yelled at from teachers .

I made myself to go and fetch her from school ,

though it would only be 3 mrt stops .

har .

forget it !

Darsh has never made me feel this way .

She never put me any lesser than Babu .

Ive always felt so happy meeting him .

Not that Ive been sad meeting your bf .

BUT do you realise for the past 2 years ,

Ive only met you WITH your bf ?

Or it'll be at your place .

Wondered why I always suggested meeting at your place ?

Not to trouble you ...

OHHH NO !

2 reasons .

1- I could talk to you ,

finally you would listen to me and not

give me some excuse NOT TO MEET ME .

2- He's not around .

You must understand .

I do not hate him .

Nope .

He's really a nice guy .

Its about you .

You've dedicated yourself to him .

I just cannot understand ...

Its already hitting JUNE ,

5 MONTHS down the road ...

I think you'd be asking ,

"Who's Renu ?"

Its okay .

I'll make the move myself .

I'll be present on your big day .

I'll be a good friend .

You've mentioned it yourself .

How you can never pay me back enough for what Ive done .

I am a good friend :)

I'll come silently and leave silently ...

Just the way you did .

_____________________________

Thanks for being my friend ...

You were there when my dad passed on .

You were there when I had no one to turn to .

You always made me smile ...

We got into troubles together ...

and we always worked ourselves out of it .

I smile sometimes thinking of our secondary school days together .

I miss them .

I miss you the most .

Take Care .

JKP =)

P.S: I won't trouble you anymore with my calls .

I won't complain no more .

You'll hear lesser & lesser of me

and soon I'll disappear .

2007-05-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

So niceeeeeeeee ...

I am really upset ...

I saw this puddy cat ...

I saw this Puddy Cat die ...

I saw it vomit blood and die .

So affected by it ...

Haiiz .

Anyhow, had to come to work today ...

don't have a choice ...

I'd rather be at work then to be at home .

At least for the week .

terrible .

Im getting really lazy .

Im feeling so down .

I hate working .

I just want to start school .

please time tick away faster .

Nazrad & I caught Pirates of the Caribbean together !

We were the first few in this country to catch it .

whoooweee ...

Love Aman :)

Annoying Cann ???

2007-05-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

TODAY .

________________

I didn't go to work .

Pretty much don't care .

Just retarded .

Can't wait ...

Meeting Suha tomorrow .

So much of gossiping on the line .

All that for now .

I'm mood-swinging .

So much to do ...

so little time .

HEY I MISS YOU !

*guess yourself 'boy'*

temperamenting .

_______________________________________________________

2007-05-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

Assumptions .

Bullies .

Bullying me ?

Making Fun of me ???

Making me Sad ???

Hurting my feelings ....

sad me sad :(

2007-05-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

Flaws and All .

Thanks to MR.VIKNESH

I didn't go to work today .

hahahahaar .

Okay Kidding .

I was on the phone talking to Him and

Darsh joined into our conversation for an hour

and this was going on till 4 in the morning

and I was supposed to wake up at 6.30 am

FANTASTIC BOMBASTIC .

I soooooo soooo WOKE UP lar .

Darsh called me at 1.30pm thinking I was in the office .

heheee .

Anyhow ,

other than all these ...

Im waiting for school to start .

Can't wait .

My orientation letter is coming soon .

har !

weeee ...

Thanks to Darsh I need to run away from frey !

heheheheee .

PRIVATE JOKE .

as for life in jill lowe international ...

Now I wearing my dumb uniform back again .

I feel so damn sad and helpless lar .

I feel so kicked around and jobless .

argh .

I do have a job .

but I am so flexible I can DARE say that -

I CAN DO FRONT DESK,

POWERPOINT PRESENTATIONS

AND MEMBERSHIP DEPT .

WTF .

_______________________________

nevermind .

my saviour's near .

i feel good .

I am evil .

Indulging in my evil acts .

Evil evil evil .

Im a stubborn Taurean afterall :)

__________________________________

2007-05-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yes , the world's a MORE sickening place

with ME around .

For a starter .

I was supposed to meet alot of people on May 1st ,

the only day I actually get HOLIDAY .

No one except Naad turned up .

Nevermind ...

One love is more bliss than anything esle in the world .

We spent quality time together .

I really miss MI with HER .

I miss recess sessions spent with her .

I miss the after school studying periods where we really studied .

I used to grumble and mumble about all the MISFITS in my life

and she was the most patient girl in the world .

I loved it !

Miss Aman ,

I am glad we were able to meet up twice in a single week .

I mean I usually have no time ever since I started working .

love love love .

She gave me presents !

hahaaa

The bear's sitting on my table .

Im intending to bring it to office :)

____________________________________________________________________

summary of the day .

candid :)
wide smiles after hell LOADS of gossiping .
I don't look myself here , but there's love in the AIR for sure :]

______________________

Then 2 idiots , namingly Viknesh and Akbar came along .

We went over to Jurong Entertainment Centre together to play pool .

WHICH I SUPER SUCK AT !

Those 2 morons were extremely sweet , they stopped the game for me .

We ate Macdonald's and I got bullied .

But it was FUN :)

Thanks you both !

_________________________________

AMK HUB

Jill Lowe International

opens her 6th outlet at

AMK HUB 3RD LEVEL .

ON MY BIRTHDAY !

Anyhow,

it was only today I managed to see the outlet

and it was gorgeous !

white white white walls and orange lights .

nice nice nice !

Then Ros , Chris ad I cam-whored and did extreme shopping .

I did the one that involves the eyes ONLY .

BANKRUPT LAR !

SOME PICTURES :)

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Rosanne advertising the company .

Christine following suit !

P.S: THE ONE ON THE COVER IS MY BOSS JILL LOWE HERSELF :(

The Balloon Girls !

We were giving out balloons to cute cute cute CHILDREN :)

CAM-WHORE

"Good Afternoon, Jill Lowe International .."

ASSHOLE !

________________________________________

I love Nazrad !

oh AMAN ,

I am so glad you are always around !

my true smile :)

with love,

Renuka*

_____________________________________________________

2007-05-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

RECOVERING . over

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

Me at Causeway Point Pizza Hut for my Pre-Birthday Dinner !

Vithiyia Vanan NT Narasimma !

My Dear Dear Bitch

____________________________________________________________

IT WAS A REALLY HAPPY BIRTHDAY .
AFTER LIKE ONE FULL YEAR OF DEPRESSION ,

I AM FINALLY BACK ON MY FEET .

ALIVE-KICKING-AND FUCKING HAPPY .

I am over all the mishaps .

I am a fresh new soul .

I feel contented .

I do .

I have all I need .

This birthday felt so good .

I had a father clapping an singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY for me !

Darshnee's dad of course !

So damn cute.

I was close to tears .

I held it back !

He came into the room screaming

"happy BIRTTTHHHDAYYY"

With my cake and 20 candles on it .

Yet to receive the picture though .

arghh so nice .

Darsh's family is my family

Her parents are like my own .

Sometimes I feel so happy and contented there .

I realise I do not need anything more .

I HAVE A FAMILY .

I HAVE MY CLIQUE OF FRIENDS .

I HAVE A LIFE .

I am happy .

do i need anything more ?

20 yeared old freak :)

I love you all .

To all the angels who wrote about me on their blogs ...

Sent me smiles and testimonials on my friendster ...

Called me up or smsed me ...

THANK YOU !

You all brightened my day !

You all are very much loved .

with love ,

Renuka*

2007-04-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

usage of vulgarities .
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Today was quite nice .
Good actually .
I went out with Jeevan and Deeban .
We caught WildHogs .
Which I wasn't so interested in watching .

Okay this is the part I say ,

" DEEBAN ,

YOU WERE RIGHT ...

THE MOVIE WAS GOOOOODDDD !!! "

*rolls eyes*

But , IT WAS GOOD .
REALLY A GOOD FLIM TO CATCH IF YOU ARE FEELING DOWN :(

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Met V'nesh after that .

Really good catching up with an old buddy after months .

He looked super cute .

Now in AIRFORCE , He paisae to saw his *3stripes* imaginary .

Still private larr, so he hide his uniform under his adidas jacket .

So he looked like a ACS Barker with his crew cut and thick black framed glasses .

Then he started giving poses to take pictures, though he pleaded with me to delete them ...

TOO BAD BRUDER !!!harharharharrrrr *evil evil evil laughter*

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Deeban's photography talents .
I look like a ..... *fill in the blanks*
arghhh .
nevermind ...
face the facts .

Met Darshnee to go back home .

Everybody's having problems .

har .

I miss Aman .

Where are the photos dear ?

Nights .

I want to go jogging tomorrow morning .

good night !

with salivery kisses,

Renuka

2007-04-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

The Story About 4 People .

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Im not going to tell anyone .

hush .

Anyhow , my past week has been burning hell .

My work place problems .

Thursday was good , we mad $13000 plus within a few hours just by sellig our

membership -$88( you get a powder, lipstick & facial free ),

UV Powder-$40(prize after 30% because its workshop rates)

and lipsticks -$20(after 30% also)

HOW COOL IS THATTTT !!!

Hmmm ... finally my hair .

Don't scream ...

Some say it sucks ..

Some say its nice ...

I do not have a opinion of my own .

har .

That's that .

I am getting ready to go to the temple ...

good bye !

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2007-04-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

I have already extended my hair and

I do not have any photos at the moment but anyhow ...

I want to just get on more colored hair extention at the side of my hair ...

Maybe only ...

OKAY then next ..

Nothing much to say ...

Just some pictures ...

Akbar and Viknesh .

Idiots made my day .

HAHAHAA (:

GOOD NIGHT SINGAPORE ..

SNORE SNORE .

2007-04-03T02:40:00.000+08:00

the roof is on fire ` burn it up .

I rarely have time to complete my assignments and yet I just can not hold myself back from blogging .

My head's about to explode .

All those chatterings,

yelling ,

laughing going on inside .

NOW I UNDERSTAND .

What Seelan said about how he keeps thinking .

I keep thinking too .

Weird stuff ...

but it happens .

Sometimes I think so much that ...

the noises in my head can block the music that Im listening to .

Evil .

Im Evil .

I commit Sins Unknowingly .

They are sins anyway .

SINS .

How am I going to clean them off ?

The stains ...

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I cannot believe this .

My heart's aching so much .

I just don't know why .

My birthday's coming .

Those bad memories .

My worst birthday ever .

I miss Jeevan already :(

9th April

tts not my birthday ...

tts just some day on my calender ..

Some day ... that will remain to haunt me .

______________________

returning back to my slides .

i think alot .

I still miss V .

He said he's planning something ...

I wonder what it could be ...

smiles**

____________________________

i miss those highways you carried me through .

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day ?

2007-03-31T19:12:00.000+08:00

Shall I compare thee to a Summer's Day ?

Alot has happened and I haven't updated much .
Working at Jill Lowe International has changed me into a hair-obsessed person .

All thanks to that PONTI * Pontianak * Christine ..That's Chris :))
haha :)

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Christine has extended her short hair .

Sheela has undergone an extreme hair make-over .

I have got no words to describe Darshnee's hair .

For you people to see .

Just pity all her Tamil classmates in the future ...

including her students .

My mom said one thing though ,

Darsh would influence all the classmates so much that

even the goody ones will turn into bad ones .

HAHAHAHAHA :))

NOW ,

I WANT TO CHANGE MY HAIRSTYLE ALSO .

WAITING FOR MY PAY .

I WANT TO CUT SOME MORE .

WOOHOOO .

I want to look like someone else .

Not like the Renuka everyone knows .

TURN MYSELF TO LOOK LIKE AN ASSHOLE BEFORE I START SCHOOL AT LASALLE ...

SO THAT I FIT IN FINE ALONG WITH ALL THOSE ASSHOLES THERE :))
HEHEHEHEEE :))

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UPDATES

Cousins meet-up after 10 thousand centuries .

Chitra, Me and Kaajjel

Chittu's birthday coming also !!!

we all look like idiots but nvm ...

it was fun EXCEPT for tHe part that KOVALAN called me GUNDU

till the whole world heard him .

All his guy friends like laughed at me :((

Finally our EX COLLEAGUE is getting married .

A pose without the bride to be .

*I look like SUPER WOMAN in this picture with my cloak behind *

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Yesterday after a tired day at work ,

I met up with

Jwen, Shi Wei and

MISS . YONG SOK CHENG

AKA MADM YONG .

Was very fun , she's EXPECTING !!!

3months ...

HAHAHAHA SOOO FUN!!!

pictures will be uploaded once SW sends it to me .

______________________________________________________

Myaimlesslife .

Im missing you alot, V .

POSHI .

CAUGHT YOU RED-HANDED WITH MY TEE SHIRT .

DARE TAKE PHOTO SOME MORE !!!

with love,

Renuka .

2007-03-22T14:25:00.000+08:00

I really cannot help but display these photos .

The first one with Rosanne my super cute rapper :)

The second one with my favourite slut , Darshnee .

Lastly Christine , Me and Darsh covering half her face (god knows why )

-on the most expensive taxi ride ever in our life .

37 DOLLARS 50 CENTS .

MID-NIGHT CHARGES ARE KILLERS .

WTH .

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We went to St James and it was SUPERRRR HUGE .

Yet we all had to bob up and down on the dance floor ,

as it was freaking crowded .

Then Darsh and I encountered this sudden JAWS ATTACK .

hahahaha .

This lame Yee`INDIAN guy larr ,

He was dancing and slowly moving towards Darsh .

So much like a shark .

Darsh and I found it so funny we started dancing with swimming actions

and put our hands on our head to form the fin .

hahahahaaa .

Then you know what this Darsh idiot did ?

SHE PUSHED ME ONTO HIM .

Rosanne helped her !!!

I was not aware of the shark at that point of time ,

he was right behind me .

They just like used their butts and pushed me onto him .

Her reason being that I'm single so I should enjoy .

hahaha .

Bitch .

I would never end up trusting a guy who hits on me in a CLUB

of all decent places in this world .

Like how many girls before me he would have tried hitting on

and I'm the loser who fell for it ???

PLEASE LARRRR .

Anyhow that was the day .

We took a cab back home .

Darsh and I went for a early breakfast .

AT 3.30 am .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA .

Eh was fun larrr .

We both were looking out for the Farker who called us SLUTS ...

He is always having breakfast at the wrong time .

that gay ...

too bad ...

guess he's not here .

wasted .

Then we both fell and slept off .

Like WTH .

I woke up at 11 and went back home .

I need to rush to go to the clinic .

Get the Chicken Pox Jab .

That's why I'm like irritated .

I'm damn tired .

haizz .

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sometimes ...

seeing happy couples holding hands and kissing just puts this smile on my face .

its beautiful .

I'm happy for you all .

Yes I am .

Oh Valli Akka ,

congrats on getting that JOB .

They are lucky to have you .

Totally .

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my hair sucks .
I look like a she-male .

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2007-03-21T18:23:00.000+08:00

Heyy Everyone .

Im back .

Alot happened recently .

Firstly , I'll like to apologise to alot of people .

Im sorry .

I think they would know who they are .

So much of misunderstanding thanks to me ar .

I think someday this blog wouldn't exist anymore .

That'll put a stop to all this .

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I went in for my lasalle Interview yesterday .

Don't know if I'll get in but FINGERS CROSSED ...

Met Jayden ...

Was pretty entertaining .

hahahaa .

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My moronic brother is down with chicken pox .

gawd .

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I fell down a flight of stairs during the tremors .

Have this 7cm long cut on my lower half of my leg .

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I met Suha and we had superrr nice time at Orchard

and we talked about so much stuff I feel so good at the end of it :)

_______________

I cut my hair .

I feel depressed .

I think I look abit like shit .

No alot .

So there are going to be noooo pictures of me on this dumb blog for sometime .

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I got my head into shit and again stand at the same point,

that I trust no one but Darshnee .

_______________

That's about it .

My hair sucks .

I suck .

Im going to CLUB later .

Rosanne's and Christine's Birthday .

I hate my life .

I suck .

ok bye .

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gay .

2007-03-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling better now .

Thank you my beloved concerned friends .

I'm feeling happy today actually .

Mr. Neo said that I'm a good girl :))

though I was actually late for work by an hour .

harharhar .

Then 3 people randomly commented that I look pretty .

heehaws :))

So also Happy .

Most Importantly,

My darling made through the Interview .

She's on her way to become a TAMIL TEACHER .

Man am I happy or what ?

__________

the day went fine .
I need some time to myself .
I need some silence .
I want to get rid of my short temper .
I flare easily .
WHY ???
__________

OH DUMBO "S" ,

DELETING US BEFORE WE DELETED YOU OFF

DOES NOTHING REALLY .

I STILL THINK THE WHOLE THING WAS DUMB , AND ITS YOUR FAULT .

PLEASEEE AR .

I THINK YOU NEED TO GET A LIFE .

SHOO- NOW FLY AWAY .

DISAPPEAR .

gay !

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2007-03-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

REJECTED .

that's how I feel .

Im trying to shift my attention elsewhere,

but Im failing miserably .

Then Darsh just had to tell me about the lame J and S .

WTF .

Hellooo - we thought you both were nice guys ar .

We take it back .

Just because we are friendly doesn't make us sluts .

Get a FREAKING life .

Darsh please do come over tomorrw .

I need some laughter .

Valli akka- Why is the clock ticking sooo slowly ?

Its just 51 minutes into Sunday .

haiiz .

Im speechless .

saviour , you're missing .

ohh my dear singer ...

I regret knowing youu .

cryinggg .

2007-03-09T03:55:00.000+08:00

Im very upset .

I can't stop crying .

Jeevan Desouza - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HONEY !!!

Love you !

Thank You for hearing me out

and

Im really not that strong I appear to be .

Im not .

I still haven't got my letter .

According to Dee, the Interview's this Monday, 12th March .

If I still haven't got any mail - obviously been rejected right ?

I haven't got an alternative .

My poor mom .

I can't stop thinking about her .

I quit MI because I wanted to lessen her burden .

I waned to be on my own 2 feet .

Now ...

I haven't ate a proper meal or even spoke to anyone properly for the past 1 week .

My mom figured it must be because of the letter .

She suddenly just brought up the topic while watching TV ,

" NVM if never get the letter ok-

I'll apply a study loan for you and put you through Lasalle . Don't worry ! "

How can I be so mean to my mother ?

HOW CAN I DO THIS TO HER ?

Enough of blaming god or any external problems .

Its me .

Im dumb .

I really don't need to be around and waste my mother's money .

r e a l l y .

Im a waste

I need to cry it out .

That bloody Inspector .

2007-03-06T11:19:00.000+08:00

THAT BLOODY CID .

I am really stuck .
Firstly I still haven't got my letter and Im sooooo upset about it .
Then now at work place,
I find my products gone and there's no record of selling in my INVOICE .
I'm worried that I have to pay up and end up not getting a pay .
Its quite low .
ARRRRRRGHHH .
Im not having a good time here .
Im upset , upset, upset , upset .

I keep seeing this stupid guy in the MRT with stupid sideburns like inverted letter "L"
and he keeps smiling at me .
He like wears office shirt with some UNDO malaysian jeans and this superrr fugly SKULL BELT like some hellbike rider all gone wrong .

hahahahhahahaaa .

Spoke to V yesterday .
haha- funny what he said .
I'm like hoping he'll keep up to his promise concerning the end of this month :)
all smiles babayyy !

SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ... haiiz .

that's all larrr .
Im at work and Im dying .
So tata- all of youu shoo off .
*yess Im the UNKNOWN TAGGER
- har prove me !!!

har ~

with loads of love ...

Renuka I cut my hair !!

My boss thinks it looks KOREAN wth !

2007-03-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

Im having a bad day .
shoo off .

Postman please work harder .

renn:(

car rides down PIE . Accidents down the Pioneer Road .

2007-02-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

I attended my Interview today.
Was late by 10 mintes though I left early and took a cab,
Thanks to the slow traffic at PIE .

I was super nervous and so was Darshnee .
My name was like on the top, I was supposed to be the first one to be interviewed but since I was late they allowed first come first serve basis.
Thank God!

I have not told you all about Darsh's story .
She was rather upset that I got the Interview letter and she didn't get hers.
She was like locked up in her room like for the whole day .
The at about 7.45pm(WHICH IS AFTER OFFICE HOURS)
somebody actually called from MOE and said sorry,
we couldn't send you the letter but you have been
short-listed for out Interview tmrw !!!
LIKE WTH RIGHTTTT ?

This is the BEST PART.
When we went to the frontdesk to sign-up.
She said,
"Hello, My name's Darshnee and Im here for the Tamil Teaching Interview."
The security asked her to sign beside her name
-same for me also ar- but since my name's right on the top I had no problem .
Her name was not one of the ten names printed on the list !
Then she looked at the Security and said
"My name's not there-"
He said
"Oh ..."
and flipped the paper over and the most wierdest thing was stated there .

IN THE MOST RUSHED UGLY SCRIBBLING EVER IT WAS WRITTEN:
"PLEASE INCLUDE THIS NAME IN:
DARSHINEE D/O PALAY"
WIERD OR WHATTTT ?

Like super last minute .
The funniest part was when they passed her the letter there and then only .
HAHAHAAA-
The point was she's one of the 11 people down for the Interview and that counts .
I was bullying her-making her feel abit less stressed .
She was stressed out not because of the Interview...
She was stressed out because...
the rest of them down for Tamil teaching were all in PUNJABI SUITS ...
HAHAHAHAAA
She was in Office pants and long sleeved- top .

I think Jill will flip if she know I wore her
G2000 UNIFORM for the Interview .
Thank the Astronauts it doesn't look Uniform-ish and there' no lame logo on it .
Obviously its G2000-GOT STANDARD MAAHH .
C'mon larrr- I have totally no other office wear laar .
gimme chance ehh ~

I had 4 people interviewing me andthey were quite nice .
Not rude or anything ...

They asked me about my MI life and why I quit .
" My passion for Art"
lame -jus hated MI larrr .
They asked me if I had an alternative .
"No- Im banking on this ."
They asked me who's my favourite artist .
"Dali Pollie Ollie- why??? Because he has got a TWISTED MIND"
harharhar :)

Ok larr .
I've done what I need to do .
15 days time ... astronauts bless me .

Haizzz ...

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I miss youu V .

_____________________________________________________________

Im done for today .

Lack of sleep for 3 days , ever since the NIE letter reached my doorstep .

Darsh and I agreed on one thing though .

We had all the time in the world and we didn't fully make use of it .

I hope the astronauts do not punish us .

goodnight Singapore .

Sweet Dreams.

muahmuah~

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2007-02-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

Finally .

Got what Iwas waiting for .

My NIE interview Letter .

Its just the beginning .

There's more to come ...

Very very very caught up .

Im getting angry fast .

I don't know why Im having this sudden anger thing in me .

Like ... Im screaming at everyone at home .

My patience level is super low .

Arghhh .

GAwd .

Yesterday was Vithima's birthday .

I hope she liked what Darshnee and I got for her :)

Yes Vithima-Like you wished for .

A picture of you on my lame blog that no one actually reads ...

cam-WHORES .

ATTENTION all current and EX-members of 06A2 ...

hahahahaa :)

Ok shobee wobbeee and I

were thinking of holding a

class gathering coming MARCH ...

we need FEED-BACK !!!

Its a only-food-cost event .

BBQ at East Coast .

By the sea- WHOOOHOOOO !!!!

Please tag my board with what you all think !!!!

MUAH MUAH - I MISS YOU ALL !!!

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2007-02-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

In the office .
On diet .
I just ate chocolate muffin .
I drank milo .

Lunch ?

No such thing .

Lao Pa Sat ?

What's that .

Papaya and Water-Melon suddenly tastes like FRIED CHICKEN .

DIETING .

I need to run .

No more MILO in my life .

Haiz .

HL .

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to hell with these boys .

Ima survivor .

:) smug smile .

2007-02-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

End of the New Year .
Lets all welcome the Pig in .
Ugh .

Anyway ...
You have been officially "erased" .
Bye .

2 half-sticks left .**

Very upset .

I wish you were here to take me for a ride,

and tell me things are "OH-KAY " .

Im working tomorrow .

I hope Ros is fine .

Her message sounded BAD .

Darsh was telling me something

about her not feelin good .

Sucha sweet girl-how can anything evil happen to her ?

those astronauts to be blamed .

*tts ros in the picture with me:)*

__________________________
We had Lao Pa Sat satay for New Year .

____________________________

My lfe's quite retarded .

Working 6 days a week .

My social life's a wreak .

haahaaa- though I have nazrad to date .

I want to watch GhostRider with Minzzie .

By next Monday okkk ???

Retarded .

NIE results to be out by the 24th - arghhh .

Im so scared .

how how ???

_________________________________

nights .

p.s:tts my face actually :))

2007-02-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know why it always happens to me-
but it just does ...
I don't really recall dumping stuff or objects that people give me or pass to me .
I have never ever done that ...

I constantly have people not at ALL respecting the effort that I actually put into
buying or giving something but it just simply goes unrespected .

The lost painful part is -- seeing it lying down there ...
I mean I didn't even have a fucking valentine ...
OK ????
I only had my darling Nad meeting me ...
YOU HAD A FUCKING VALENTINE WHO FUCKING CAME TO PICK YOU UP IN A FUCKING BIKE ...
If that fucking chocolates part went wrong and your fucking boyfriend doesn't fucking appreciate your efforts but instead fucking complains what do I have to do with it ???

Then went it on me ? I don't really think its nice ar ... And just because YOU had a bad day yesterday I went to buy you chocolates and here they are ...lying beside me ... You didn't even ask me if I ate and I was fucking waiting for you to come down ...-ADDING ON THE STUPID BAJU PROBLEM YOUR BOYFRIEND JUST FUCKING SUCKS OK ????
Ah lah fuck it larrr ah ...

Thanks anyway - FEEL EXTREMELY SPECIAL BECAUSE OF YOU ...
Whoohoo ...
:((
its personal- don't ask me about it .
bye .

2007-02-12T10:09:00.000+08:00

I have never been on a MRT ride

worst than the one I had today.

I mean ...

like super seriously ...

Like I stepped into the MRT,

I walked towards this empty seat and whoosh

...

this kiasu ladee just stepped on my heels and won that golden seat , leaving me to stand infront of her looking at her face like a swine which is getting roasted while she gave me her victorious smile !!!

WTH larrr ar !

then I was standing there har ...

and Like my heels were

like so killing me

and they were like sooo tight

and they were like sooooooooo uncomfortable ...

*bimbo voice*

Then there was this indian national uncle

whom so really reminded me of Mr. Sengu .

I think it was his belly and his height ar .

Then I was standing like infront of him but near his right shoulder side ar .

Then at Yio Chu Kang MRT station,

I don't know why there was this whole BARGE of people like as if YCK had a population upgrade overnight .

So I was pushed to the back of the cabin .

So I had to stand near the indian uncle

and he started rubbing his belly on my back .

It was like the most utterly digusting feeling everrr ...

ugh .

Then finally I got a seat at City Hall but wtf,

next stop I need to get down whattt -

I felt like a fool .

I was looking at this woman

and the only word I can use to describe her would be

freakzilla .

She was wearing blue mascara and the

wrong coloured shoes for the wrong type of clothes .

hahahaaa ...

wtf .

Ok bumming here at work .

Supposed to be eating .

waiting for the rest to eat .

ok darsh poor thing is ill ,

so after work that's at 5.30pm

Im leaving to go over to her place .

Bumming as usual .
That asshole tried to flirt AGAIN .

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2007-02-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

My rideeee

*hahahaaaa~*

He bought me a cup of hot milo at Mac because I was shivering in the bus .

hahahaa~

My swweeetttt deebuuu !!!

We cracked a joke about Jeevan's :GENTLEMANLY" side ...

muahahahaaa-

quite furnnieee ...

I miss you larr desouzaaaa ...

I wanna follow you'll to meet Sara alsoooo ...

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sleepy but need to complete Jill's stupid project !

2007-02-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

We had lunch ...
at this place called "Heads or Tails" .
We had like super delicious stuff .
I had peanut butter bread with condensed milk .
Darsh had ovaltin with CM .
Sonia had otak otak which was like WHOOHHOOO !!!

darsh digging for money !
sonia and darsh .
me with my eyebags due to lack of sleep .

Oh I bought this new top .

For work .

That bloody bitch E,

commented tt I look fat in it ,

but SURPRISINGLY Jill ACTUALLY came to my aid and said nope it looks just fine :)

Oh- Looks like Im doing front desk soon .

Which means Uniform .

Gawd .

I am nott too sure HOW IM GONNA LOOK .

I would be happy to have a uniform as it means

lesser stress of picking out my clothes for work .

The sad thing is that the uniform is black and according to Jill ,

I fall under the "spring autumn" season - meaning I cannot wear colours like black and blue etc .

So I dunnoe larrr .

_____________________

My baju tt made me look fat !

_________________

I miss you and the highways that you drove me through !

___________________________

2007-01-31T10:23:00.000+08:00

I WISH ARRR ...
THAT ARRR ...

I was the girl in BLACK and Darsh would most probably be the one in bluee .

BUT HORRR ...

I am more like THISSS... and imagine if I get emotional ...

And If I do get EMOTIONALLL ... YOU better run ...

OK LET THIS ENTRY ALONE PROVE HOW BORED I ACTUALLY AM .

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Bloody hell , I came here early in the morning at 9 and I was supposed to learn how to do FRONT DESK and here I am sitting in Sonia's laptop and blogging away .

I was sooo dead tired yesterday marn, but it was fun . Oh , btw my fast would end tonight . Yes, its thaipusam AND Im piercing my tongue again tonight :(( scared .

Jill just dumped some drawings on my head. I'll be kindda designing her notes that she uses for seminars. She said that she'll pay me for my sketches - she better lor. I hope she likes them in the first place .

I miss Minz . So cannot talk to her thanks to my working hours . Still stuck with no real job to do. I'm like a superman with no problems to handle lor . The place is practically empty . Im waiting for Jill to finish her seminar to help business women look and dress better- IMAGE CONSULTANT MAHHH ...

Im dying .

WHAT THE FUCK IS STRAIGHT STYLE, SOFT STRAIGHT ND CURVED STYLE ?

Even if they are talking about body shape, straight and curved makes sense what about soft straight ???

Im waiting for Darshnee to turn up and waiting for thw wretched clock to strike 12 so that I can run down to get my butter with sugar bread for lunch .

Ok then got to continue with my sketches .

Everybody PRAY that I'll get paid for my sketches and I hope she writes me a testimonial saying that I have actually done sketches for the company's projects .

muahahahahahahaa .

ok arhh people BYE .

With hell`loads of love to last every tom, dick and harry

till 3007 ,

Renuka :)

my earrr .

2007-01-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

YESSA .

I DID IT .

YESSA !

Applause**

yes- THANK YOU-THANK YOU !!!

Gott the piercing I wanted for ages .

Ok Im outta here now .

Gotta go hang out with Nee tmrw .

Buy cake for my BABU dear .

OMG YARRR ...

BABU ---

Thanks for the MotorRide ....

I was soooo happy lar .

It was so fun yet scary !!!

love you babu !!!

_______________

RUNNING OUTTA HERE !

lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaa .

2007-01-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

WHY WHY WHY

Ok ...

You got "-" and I know nuts about it .

_____________________________________

imfastingyouass-don'tcallmeever .

ANYWAY ,

O levels results will be released in a few weeks time and Im still rotting .

I better double up on my folio .

Seelan Palay thanks for your great help :)

My week has been bad .

Finally I got the job .

Jill Lowe International .

An Image Consultant and Cosmetic Company .

I have really never been scrutinized to this extent before .

Standing infront of her,

I felt like some squirming bug .

For a women standing at her late forties and a mother of two teenage children ,

she held an image of a lady pouncing in her early thirties .

Her cold small eyes examined me in silence and only after her approval nod did I gather my guts to move my hands forward to shake her hand .

My limp hand shake received a firm hard and cold handshake as response .

Her smile was warm but I couldn't see any of it radiate from her eyes .

She gave me dressing tips for office wear .

"Wear skirts - we have the same shape . Skirts catch them better "

*cold smile*

I was like ... "Uh- Ok M`aam "

*I look at her uneasily and fake a "real smile"*

" I do not EVER , want to see your nails varnished in any other colour that doesn't go with your skin like green, ble or red or whatever "

*holds her head*

I went "Uh- Ok "

" Do not let down your hair, because this is MY office not a BAR "

*BIG COLD SMILE -makes circular motions near my hair*

I went "Uh- Maam ok "

*I tie up my hair- giving her a "IM SORRY" smile*

"Work with me, don't listen to others and jeopardise your career . Have I made myself very clear dearie ?"

I still went , "Yes M`aam . Clear to the last letter "

I couldn't say anything after this rather exciting interview with Jill .

I was baffled .

That's the word of the day .

_____________________________

theFATTY .
____________________________________

I know one thing for sure .
I need to jog .
Maybe not everyday, but once in 2 days .
I practically DIE everytime I step into ROBINSON TOWERS lift to go to work .
EVERY SIDE IS MADE UP OF MIRRORS .
I LOOK OUT-OF SHAPE IN EVERY MIRROR .
ITS LIKE EVERYONE AROUND ME IS CHANTING
"FATTY BOMB BOMB" IN MY EAR .
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH ...

withlove ,
fatty :X

______________________sometimesIwish______________________

2007-01-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so depressed .
I feel like crying .
Ive been calling like one CB .
All THAT can say is "Im with a friend !"
WTF .

Bye lar ahh-

______________________

CINE leisure .

2007-01-23T18:26:00.000+08:00

My Kindergarden updates ...

My hardworking kids !

He didn't want to let me go off at the end ...

________________________________________________

Boredom at its FATAL POINT .

______________________

Hello Friends !

I am stuck at CINE leisure .

With an bumassholewipe called DEEBAN .

Got another friend called Gana also lar, but he has done no harm SO FAR .

Deeban called me HERE .

I'm bored .

He let me use the net for free as his working here ,

BUT Im like super-dee-doper bored and his not helping me !!!

ARGHHHHH .

Ok anyway .
I so thought I won't make any calls but I ended up making the last one
AND NOWWW ...
My face gone already :(

haiz .
Im still bored .
Ok lets talk about today ...

I went to relief for Uma Akka at the kindergarden .
I taught the kids tamil
*hahahhaaaa*
How to jump, touch their toes , what is walk, what is dance ...
So cute larr .
Their dance and jump arrr macam similiar .
hahahaaaa .

Then I drew for them shapes of people dancing and playing to colour .
The guys all took the ones with the boy playing ball
and the girls took the ones with the girl dancing ballet .
AM I SURPRISED ???

Then my tamil lessons ended to start the maths lesson .
I was thanking lord that I had only 7 students for maths and funny thing they
were all indian kids .
I have a crush on that one called SATYA SURIYAN .
AWWWWWW - He held my hands and wouldn't let me go larrr .

For maths they learnt from 6 to 10 .
I had to draw shapes out for them .
It was cool .
The hard part was actually GETTING them to DO WORK .
They keep seeing me smile ...
They keep hugging me ...
BUT SADLY THEY THINK I'LL LET THEM GO ..
HAHA-
NEEEEEEEVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR .

WhooHooo !!!

Then supposed to go on a date with that dumb chokri .
but that BONDER ...
She chabot class and went back home to do her assignments .
UGH ...
That's why Im here now-
Freezing in this dumb cineleisure game shit place .

end of sad story .
Pictures of my hunks and ladees from the kindergarden to be updated when i reach home .
I want to listen to music also they are blasting bloody shit techno here .

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peace to these dying eardrums .

2007-01-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

What happens when 2 asses go to the Libary ?

We started off studying ...

Then Poopinder Singh distracted us .

Then some evil spirit took over us .

Then both of us started having fits .

Then a Monkey spirit took over my body .

Mine wasn't as bad as hers . . .Then we finished it off with a kiss :))

JasmineKHOTI !!

It was such a fun day starting from 8 am in the morning at the stadium .

Love you .

Muack Muack .

___________________________________________

With your picture in my head .

Yesterday night was one tt I don't think I'd forget fast .

Feel quite funny .

Like the feeling you get before vomitting .

I don't know.

I think its also called ,butterflies in your tummy .

argggghhhh .

Just when Im moving on .

It happens all over again .

Listen .

I don't want you to add me into your msn or friendster .

Its so wtf .

I mean - yea You`re forgiven but NO .

Its over .

So ya .

I can't forget the "pass" as easy as you can do that .

Just count yourself lucky- I don't take Revenge .

Vik

I don't know if you'd ever cross by my blog .

Thank you so so so so so Much .

I don't know why I am thanking you .

Its like I have a thousand reasons .

I just can't state all of it .

Just want to let you know .

I smile when I think of you .

Take Care :)

Im blessed .Thank you God :))

2007-01-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

Bored .
Stuck .
Confused .
Arghhhh . . .
Minz .
Got something to tell you .
I swear you'll be excited !!!

_____________________

I am JOBLESS .

I am HOPELESS .

I don't even know if NIE will take my swine`ass in .

I am positive .

Mr. Tay is confident .

WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE IN ?

__________________________________

what will I do if I do not get in ???

I am really ignoring the question larrh .

Very scared to face reality .
Even at this moment I do NOT regret quitting MI .

I know that if I had stayed on I would have wasted 2 more years of my life .

and to hit it all off I'll be back at SQUAREONE- with an O level cert .

Might as well take the risk now and make amendments for it faster .

_________________________________

Right now waiting for Palay's call .

To tell me I got the job .

M confused me about N .

For now I am very confused about N that I feel like killing M .

If I meet M again, M's screwed shit for sure .

But I never thought that it was possible though .

Possible for someone like N to

Like or have an crush on

me :))

Palay Bitch .

Stop CONFUSING me and

honestly ...

THE TEMPTATION IS HIGH .

Idiotttt .

__________________________________

The one night stand that will stay in my HEAD .

So, I did leave my emotions behind .

Can I have it ALL back please ?

______________________________________________________________________

Listening to Rihanna : We Ride .

Bugis the wonderland .

2007-01-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

BAGUS`bugis .

Eight more days and Valli would be in the arms of her man :)

I swear Im the happiest knowing this lar .

I will be missing her loads .

So we planned this outing out of the BLUE .

Comes in handy that we live in the same neighbourhood .

hahahaha~

The skipping buddies :)

...

First we FINALLY went to watch

'A NIGHT IN THE MUSEUM' !

Gosh it was SO BLOODY FUNNY !!!

Then we both visited my hunk working at CINELEISURE :)

Then we walked to FAREAST .

...

Valli bought a pair of

KILLER HEELS

hahahaha ~

A KILLER BAG

annnnddd ...

Then she caught this KILLER TOP that she liked at

3 different places and at different prices .

First-$29.90 .

Second- $39 .

Third- $25 !

That final bargain was at Bugis -

where she finally bought it .

Before hitting BugisStreet ,

WE BOTH HIT STARBUCKS ...

for some coffee and camwhoring session :)

Chocolate cream chip and Java chip ice blend .

...

I just bought a pair of shades ,

some earstuds ,

a watch ,

plaster for my poor bruised feet :(

On the way back home -

...

THAT BLOODY INDIAN NATIONAL BUGGER .

I swear his armpits ahh ...

Wahh- he kept hitting me ...

There was so much of space at the back and he refused to budge

from his spot inbetween Valli's and my seat in the bus .

He was monkey swinging lar inbetween the bars on the top .

He kept elbowing me .

Elbow me nevermind-

ELBOW MY FACE FOR WHATTTTT !!!

GAWDDDDDDD .

...

Basically .

THE DAY ROCKED !

I love you Valli !!!

Muack-Muack !

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stop that mental torture .

This is getting outta`hand .

yours sincerely ,

Renuka .

listening to p.diddy's TELL ME .

2007-01-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

The Ride

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Vik and I did this planning for Mesh's 22nd Birthday surprise .

Supposed to be a 2 in 1 .

Because Mesh wouldn't expect Me nor Vik to turn up

as he has signed on in Airorce and its rather diff to meet up .

So the plan was supposed to meet Mesh under his block and suprise him with the 2mini cakes that I bought for him from 4leaves - chocolate obsession :)

So Vik first fetched me according to plan from Causeway Point .

We got lost and visited Kranji War memorial ...

HAHAHAHA .

We passed Woodlands Ave 9 and 4 three times .

Then we nearly went to the customs .

That bloody idiot keep threatening me that

he'll throw me out of the car because I was bullying him ...

THAT ONLY LASTED

for a while because after

Mesh joined us as after that I was the

BLOODY BUTT

of their lame idiotic jokes .

gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ....

Mesh really spolied the surpris cos he kept changing the meeting area with me ,

Only because he suspected me to be with Vik already ...

HAHAHA !

Was really FUN !

Then we 3 didn't know what to do .

We wanted to go to the Chua Chu Kang Graveyard and actually drove past it ...

Then Mesh the ass wanted to fetch DARSH .

Even 2 guys bullying me is still fine you know ...

The minute Darsh stepped into the Car ...

I died .

On the whole it wasss really fun .

They dropped me off at Darsh's place .

I slept there andreturned home the next morning .

Wooo---

Some Photos ...

On the way to have BreakFast :)
Vik Posing like some ASSWIPE -

Which he IS .
Happy Birthday Mesh !!!

Its feels so much like a 1 night stand-

Missing it already .

I left my emotions on the bed .

Could I please have it back ?

2007-01-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

My Best Friend's WEDDING bells .

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The blissful moment spent alone waiting for Darsh at BoonLay .

The picture with Gowri the Millennia Guide *hahahahaaa*

in the school's NEW TOILET .

My first and last Picture there lar .

At the Bridal at Chong Pang .
HER IN HER WEDDING GOWN :)
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YES .

My best friend is INDEED getting married .

WOSHHHH !

I mean -

I really can't believe someone so close to me

is taking such a BIG STEP in her life .

HAHAHAAAAAAAAAA .

It'll be so fun - She's got to be very very very MATURED .

She needs to make her OWN decisions .

Buy her OWN HOUSE .

She needs to SAVE .

Most of all -

She needs to do

FAMILY PLANNING !!!

HAAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

SOOO FUNNYYYYYYYY

AND scary ALL at the same time .

I told her ,that her kids will call me

"Mommy" .

No matter what-

Im going to be their GOD-MOTHER .

HAHAHAHAHA-

haizzzz ...

Love you asswipe .

We Practically GREW up together lar .

We hated each other when we were 13 ...

Then we became friends when we were 14 ...When we were 15 .

16 Passed and ... and we turned 17 .

We turned 18 and 19 flew by ...

And now we're 20 .

Love you loads ...
Renuka :)

2007-01-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

Nazrad Aman's 19th !

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We surprised this asswipe at Bumble's .

Quite a parteee I would say .

Not a single soul around .

The ENTIRE place to ourselves .

An non-local made friends with us but

all of us knew he was just looking for an EASY FUCK la .

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*DRUNK .

* DRUNK .
* DRUNK .
Pole Dancing .

*Fucking Drunk .

The Couple of the Day !

Absolute Nonsense :)

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Going back to MI .

After like months I went back to school for 2 reasons .

One for my testimonial - WHICH I STILL DIDN'T GET !!!

Secondly for my Darling Mai's birthday !!!

Hope you had Fun

Maisarah d/o Super DADDY ! *Supadi*

Hope you liked what we got you .

With loadsa Love ,

Renuka :)

2007-01-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

You set my soul on FIRE .

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WHAT THE F* !

I mean .

You really have NO SHAME ah ?

Where did you manage to gather that guts to

SPEAK TO ME ?

SHAMELESS BABOON !

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Tralalalalaaa .

Did Bugis Shopping AGAIN !

Nothing much just 2 more tops `fer myself yeah !

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WITH LOVE ,

Renuka :)

2007-01-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

Stupid Kotti like Jasmine would say :)

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I need a new DIARY .

I feel like writing something and drawing something horrible

and confine all my evil thoughts inside that book .

I finished my 2006 diary .

I need one for 2007 .

I met Darsh today .

Went to the lib .

Borrowed some books .

For Art and one comedy and love story .

"Shaking her assets"

Then , we both were having ice-cream and guess who turns up ?

Anand "Darsh's bf" and Deen .

We had quite a rocking time at CWP .

I even saw MAMA :)

That idiot walked past me ...

hahaaa .

Jasmine STOP LAUGHING you swine .

We need to go jogging AGAIN you pigg !!!

4 sticks to go .

Gawd .

My brain ah - is like whirling .

Like I can't talk one thing and I keep jumping topics .

Gawd .

My Darshnee and her Babu Kutty on New Year at BumbleBeez .

Erm, YES She's quite high on WINE .

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I want to forgive everyone tt I've ever screamed at or made me angry .

This year is new , so let's start anew .

I want to apologise to anyone I've hurt as well .

I want to be nice .

So Sajiv- You're Forgiven and Happy New Year .

May you be blessed with MANY more

boob-a-licious girls like your current Malay GF, Chinese GF and Oh yea that Indian GF too .

HAHAHAAHA .

I am forgiving- only because I know I deserve better .

So yepp .

HAHAHAHA .

How hard I try, the bitch in me never fails to disappear .

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I know he thinks you're fine and stuff

but does he know how to wind you up ?

winding it upp .

2006-12-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

New Year ~

My New Year was spent with the same people again .

Mommy, Sister , Brother and my dearest Valli akka .

I spent my last New Year with all of them at the old temple .

This year- haiz the adults and their misunderstandings at least I had Valli akka .

I think I'll go down to meet them thi Friday !

hahaaa :)

TTs all for now .

I feel sad for no god damn reason so yea .

Bye people .

vintage . heels . christmas trees . shopping. shopping . shopping !

2006-12-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

vintage wear .

heels .

christmas trees and lights .

manicure and padicure .

. shopping. shopping . shopping !

TILL YOU DIE ~

All because Christmas is here again .

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Not like I actually celebrate ,

but I had cash this season .

AND, when you have cash

-you have to buy stuff ...

As its THE season to give ,

and be jolly !!!

HAHAHAHA .

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Christmas means ...

presents !!

Family bonding ...

Loadsa LOVE !!!

hahahah :)

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First I went to Bugis on Thursday

The tree made out of sookee diamonds .

Mallika sweetheart and Me~

Hafiza and Aman :)

Only my Palay dear don't want t posefor a picture ...

I bought a pair of heels and a top from Far East .

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Then on Friday went to Yishun to buy lens and

only on Saturday I realised that they cheated me by only

giving me one of the 2 lens I bought .

Went to Chong Pang with Palay, Big Palay, Amu ka ,

baby girl and Amu ka's friend Bavani ka .

Only took picture with big Palay :)

I look stupid .

We saw this stupid vandalism !!!

HAHAHAHA

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Went to Sharon's church on Saturday .

Saw ALOT of people .

HAHAHAHA .

Bunch of losers .

We took alot of pictures .

weeeeee ...

The Jing Bang .

Mallika sweetheart love**

My sista :)

Us again ...

At home ... :)

My new top :))

Heeheee .

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Then on sunday I fell ill ...

High fever with flu first ...

Monday it developed into vomiting

That I was doing for like 6 times...

And my temp was at 39 degrees .

Then finally today my fever and flu dropped ...

Feeling much better but I still need

help walking around the house ....

haiz ...

Merry Christmas Everyone :)